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Thursday, August 25, 2011

News Flash

I'm not perfect. I don't have it all together.

There is a weak spot in my relationship with my kids. There has been for a while. From what I could see, I thought that it was becoming stronger, becoming more reinforced. I was doing everything in my power to keep it from breaking, and I failed.

On the other side of that weak spot, it was being chiseled away, bit by bit, little by little.

And today it broke. I don't know if it can be fixed. I don't know how to fix it.

With that piece broken, my heart is shattered. And it hurts like hell.

I don't know what to do. I'm lost, confused, scared, and hurt.

Please, just bear with me as I work through this, and understand that I just can't go into details right now - and maybe not ever.

And remember - sometimes those who seem strong are the ones who need the most support.
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13 comments:

  1. Momma TAugust 25, 2011 at 8:14:00 PM CDT

    I'm always here, Amy...if you need ANYTHING, please know you can call! :( *HUGS*

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  2. AnonymousAugust 25, 2011 at 8:35:00 PM CDT

    I FOR ONE IF I LIVED THERE WOULD GIVE YOU 100% SUPPORT.

    GRANNIE HUGS.

    GRANNY

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  3. AnonymousAugust 25, 2011 at 8:38:00 PM CDT

    PS, TIME FOR YOUR MINISTER SUPPORT. GO, DON'T WALK, RUN.

    GRANNY

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  4. Non-Stop MomAugust 25, 2011 at 9:44:00 PM CDT

    Thanks T and Granny...

    Things have calmed down somewhat, but it's still a very .... I don't know the word. Sometimes when things appear calm is when they can blow.

    T, I think I'm going to skip the playdate tomorrow. I'm just not in the mood right now. :( I have absolutely zero facebook or twitter access right now - both through the phone and the tethering so I need to find out what's going on with that. My phone has been acting wonky for a while and now I think it might just be flat-out dying. >:(

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  5. AnonymousAugust 25, 2011 at 10:04:00 PM CDT

    Amy-we all have weak spots. I am so sorry you are going thru a tough time right now. You can always share with us. You are not alone...
    Huge Hugs, Beth

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  6. KristenAugust 25, 2011 at 10:09:00 PM CDT

    Amy...
    well... as a rebellious teenager/child, and a parent of divorce, who was a total B*(*& to my parents growing up... it is a wonder anyone likes me :) The amazing thing about our souls and hearts is that they are organic. When you "crack" something organic, you put a bandaid on it and often it will mend itself. Sometimes you need a little Neosporin or extra healing time - but - usually it will mend again.
    Also... read the wichita thing - didn't even need to GUESS what headline. I'm glad we are friends. Yes, move to PA :)

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  7. 1stTimeMamaAugust 25, 2011 at 10:15:00 PM CDT

    Honey, know that I am here for you 100%, even if you just need an ear to vent to. <3 Sending you love from TX.

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  8. TeaAugust 26, 2011 at 6:42:00 AM CDT

    We don't know each other, but I a rooting for you and your family.

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  9. Momma TAugust 26, 2011 at 7:11:00 AM CDT

    Amy...just sent you a message via FB, but now reading this. TOTALLY understand, but know you are always welcome. I don't have a Twitter account, but J and I couldn't get into Yahoo or FB and several other sites last night either. I am pretty sure it was either a Verizon or pdaNet problem, so maybe you are up and running this morning as we are. Love ya, lady...hang in there!

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  10. Kateri Von StealAugust 26, 2011 at 7:42:00 AM CDT

    100% Support from your Mama Blogger Buddy in NY

    ****HUGS****

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  11. AnonymousAugust 26, 2011 at 4:40:00 PM CDT

    AMY, HERE'S A CUTE BLOG TO GET YOUR MIND OFF THINGS. THIS LADY WRITES BOOKS AND SHE ALSO CRATES THESE SMALL SCENES OF MICES. YOU CAN SPEND FOREVER GOING THROUGH EACH ONE OF HER POST. IT'S JUST FUN.
    TG GRANNY

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  12. Non-Stop MomAugust 28, 2011 at 12:14:00 AM CDT

    Just a quick little update for those who get notified of new comments. At this point in time, the situation seems to be somewhat resolved, in that a plan has been put into place to work on it, and see where that takes us.

    It's one of those situations that I will most likely never talk about publicly, because of the personal nature involved - if it was just me, that would be one thing - but since the kids are deeply involved, I won't. The day-to-day stuff is one thing, but the personal stuff with them is totally different.

    Thank you, all of you, for your support - it means the world to me!

    :)
    Amy

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  13. marejohnAugust 28, 2011 at 12:21:00 AM CDT

    Being a mom is the toughest and best thing ever. I pray that whatever the situation is will resolve and you will all be stronger for it. I also appreciate your resolve to protect them in so far as what you share...another sign of a great mom (which i believe you are...no, not perfect, but a heck of a good mom)
    Hugs
    mare

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